I made the mistake of checking the news on Covid case updates here in Victoria. It says things like: “the 14-day average (is) higher than the target”, “mystery cases emerge”, “Melbourne won’t take a full third step (to ease down the lockdown) next week”, etc.
I have been trying to stay positive as much as I can during this pandemic. I keep telling myself that as long as I can stay afloat, I can survive this. Even when, at times, it means taking a dip into sadness, negativity, pessimism, uncertainty, fear, and hopelessness.
“Staying afloat” has been my Covid mantra and pandemic survival mode.
As long as I resurface.
Today, though, after reading it (all these came from one single click of a news link) – I came to the realization that living in the midst of this pandemic and six months of on-and-off, with the last six weeks being a full-on, lock-down feels like being in an abusive relationship.
On the other side, there is COVID-related stuff that constantly reminds me that it’s not so bad. I should be grateful that the government is taking all precautions to ensure it can nip it in the bud (even though it’s obviously a little too late). That me and my loved ones are healthy. That I still have my job. That yada yada yada…
Yes, Covid, it is not that bad. At least not for me.
And yes, in the grand scheme of the pandemic, I do consider myself, dare I say, lucky. But I also know and am dying to scream out (only from my own balcony, of course, because of the lockdown) that this is NOT okay. It can’t go on for much longer. I don’t deserve this. No one deserves this. Give our lives back!
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